im thinking being taken off my mood stabilizers was a bad idea now. im nothing but depressed anymore.
i neeeeed to get a job. i applied at michaels and subway today. im REALLY not ready for one because you know, im going to have to work with new people and thats when my social-anxiety disorder kicks in. im scared to meet new people. even though ive been doing a lot better. shiloh and i went to the mall yesterday and there was this really cute boy working there and i got the balls to go up and talk to him. he was really nice and really shy with me, haha. and he kept smiling a lot. he has really nice teeth. and nice hair too. shiloh is such a fun girl to hang out with. we saw a ton of people we knew at the mall yesterday. it was pretty sweet. we went into one of those photobooths where you get pictures and they are put onto a strip. that was awesome too. we are going together to get our hair cut next weekend. we were going to do it tomorrow but i want to keep my hair long for homecoming so that i can curl it. im pumped for homecoming this year by the way. i havent gone to any school dances since homecoming my freshman year. and that was in 2004. that homecoming really sucked because i brought my boyfriend and he ditched me and made out with this other girl. amazing. but this year im going with my friends stephanie, brittany, dave, and these two other people that i dont really talk to but whatever. were going to eat at either applebees, dennys, orrrrrr chilis. we dont know yet. but then were going to the dance and going cosmic bowling after. its gonna be fun.
finallyyyyyy found someone to put my hair extentions innnn.
wow its been a while since ive written in this.
i went to a show at the modern exchange yesterdaaay.
a man can be destroyed but not defeated.